Saturday, December 6, 2008

We Live a Humble Life

Without a dishwasher. I mean we have many able bodied dishwashers, but none that require electricity. I tell this because I have relinquished most dishwashing duties to the 8 year old and the 6 year old. It. Is. Killing. Me. Which is actually good for the control freak in me. After all they have to become contributing responsible citizens at some point. It is just hard to watch the drying towel wrap around my sons head and God only knows what else it does just before it goes to dry a dish...

In other news. My older two bathe themselves. After this next dialogue that I am going to share I am questioning whether that was a good call on my part...

One of my children who shall remain nameless, because I am sure at some point they will care that I share things about them, informed us that they liked the smell of skunks. This comment was then followed by I like the smell of skunks because it is not half as bad as the smell between my toes...

And I will leave you with that.

God bless.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Smoothing Off the Rough Edges

As you know I have 3 children. The first two were VERY well behaved babies and toddlers for the most part. I could reprimand them with minimal scolding or hand swats. My third, notsomuch, let's just say that he is very different...

I have puzzled over this matter for many hours wondering is it because I am doing something different? No, I mean things are a little different, but I am not easier on him than the other two. Here is what the Lord has imparted to me.

Being a parent, as you probably know, helps us to become selfless(hopefully!) and more like Jesus Christ--servantlike. Caleb was given to us because we had A LOT more work that needed to be done. Apparently, my rough edges had not been smoothed down at all with the first two! And now, I am struggling.

I have been praying for the last year that the Lord would search my heart and use the fire of His Holy Spirit to cleanse my heart to make me more like Him(I do not tell you this because I think that I am anything great--I am not, quite the opposite actually--I am in desperate need of change). It just so happens that He will give you anything that you ask as long as it is not to consume upon the lusts of your flesh!

OH MY GOODNESS!!! I never thought that there could be SO much darkness and sin in ONE heart... And He often uses my little man to show me. Because honestly, Caleb wears me out. And sometimes I get grumbly and say things like "I cannot wait for him to grow up he breaks EVERYTHING!!! I just want my stuff to stay nice and I just want my house to be safe and I and my blahblahblah!!!" Then the Holy Spirit is quick to show me my selfish thinkin', imagine! I asked for it! Of course there is grace, praise Jesus, and of course His mercies endure forever thank you GOD, but that does not negate the fact that I am having a VERY difficult time enjoying being a mommy with this one. I am constantly needing the gently reminder from the Lord that being a mom is an act of servanthood--selflessness, for some reason I do not do that well. Is this normal? Or, am I a spoiled brat? Sometimes I am merely treading water with the parenting of this wee one.

All of that to say that God has a WHOLE LOT of work to do in me! SO as I draw closer to Him the sinful condition of my flesh becomes more obvious and that much more detestable because honestly there are MANY days that I feel like I may be barely moving forward toward a more Christlike nature. It certainly is a very good thing that we never "arrive"...

Jesus Please help me to be more like you, I am failing soooo much!!! I need you. Help me, Lord. AMEN.

God bless and I hope that I am not alone in this!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

To Post Personal Stuff or Not to Post...

That is the question...

I have struggled with this one question for some time! I really want to share my life with some people... However, I don't know about others! I don't mind sharing my testimonies about what the Lord is doing and has done in my life for His glory!

But the mundane details of my life and that of my families I am just not sure... And then there is always the problem of where do I start??? I don't know... It baffles me.

So, today I am going to share with whoever would care to know that I run. And lest you think too highly of me, don't. Because honestly, I don't like the actual act of running--it hurts me. I do, however enjoy the benefits, you know like blowing off steam aka decompressing, staying healthy, maybe keeping the pounds at bay, I think that about sums it up. And so since the benefits outway the loathing that I feel toward running I continue to do it! I made a goal on Jan. 8, 2007(when my baby was 5wks) that I would run regularly for a year, when that goal passed I just made it another year goal and now we are approaching 2 years of consistant running! Which is a miracle in itself because I do not stick to consistant workout. EVER. I go in 6 month spurts and it seems like that is my M.O. I am determined to break that habit and so I run.

And man I feel so good when I finish a run.

I share all of this with you to tell you about a run that I had on Monday. If you have never ran then this might be difficult for you to understand. Running is painful, if you run distance. Monday was my long run, 10 miles, and it was VERY windy with temps at about 35-40 degrees. I run on a mile long track and everytime I came around this certain corner the wind would nearly push me backwards-made my eyes water. I kept asking the Lord to please spare me!!! This is what He spoke to me:

"Your walk with Me is much like running. It is hard. Not popular, painful even, alot of the time. Sometimes the run is less painful and you have joy, you feel good, the temperature is perfect and you cannot quit being glad that you are able to run and feel this good, but most of the time there are hurdles and trials and the road is long and arduous. This wind you are experiencing is similiar to the wind that is about to come to this nation. It is going to be feirce, painful, you will "feel" like you are being pushed backwards, your eyes may pour tears from the sting of it, but DO NOT FEAR, cling to Me, keep your eyes on Me DO NOT GIVE UP! The outcome for you may not look like what you have in mind, for my ways are not your ways and my thoughts are above you thoughts."

Alot of times, in fact, most of the time, the Lord uses my runs to speak to me, or ask me to pray. This time was not different it was just way more obvious(not sure how to explain) like His voice in my spirit was "louder". So, my plan is to press into Him with all that I have and not look to the left or the right, just keep my eyes on Jesus Christ. I can assure you that during this race that we are in toward the prize of the high calling of Jesus Christ that that will be the ONLY way that we can make it...

God bless,

Thursday, November 13, 2008

LOOK!!! An Update, and Not Another Political Alert, or Morality Stance!!!

Ok, so I realize that I have been HEAVY on the controversial issues, but I just cannot get over how much EVIL is gushing out in the USofA these days...

But that is not why I am posting!

I am posting because I wanted to talk about what the Lord is doing on the adoption front at the moment!

Well, we know that we will adopt. We did ALOT of research on agencies, homestudies, cost, countries, etc., etc. and we are now in the prepare mode. Which translates into Jesus has told us what we are going to be doing and now we are waiting for His perfect timing!

We have to get our house in order, so that when we have our homestudy there will be enough room for another child! When we moved to our farmhouse we moved from a house that had a 2 car garage with built in shelving and MANY closets to another tiny home with NO garage, and hardly any closet space! So, one of our 3 bedrooms is a storage room! I have tried not to let it get that way, but have failed miserably! So, our 3children share a room which works alright for now, but it won't be long before that will no longer be the case!

I am so very excited about what the Lord is doing, but anxious as well! I don't want to miss Him and His perfect will for our lives. In the mean time I will keep putting one foot in front of the other and getting our ducks all in a row!

God bless!

Also, wanted to leave you with this WONDERFUL song! Holy Holy is HE!

Monday, November 10, 2008

Parental Rights... Who Should Have Them?

According to the United Nations they should have them. Or, at least they should have the access to make sure that you are a good "care giver".

I just read this article and am saddened because their is a president about to take office that will probably be very supportive of this measure. All I can say is Come quickly Lord Jesus! And of course, lift up ALL the precious children and babies whose lives are and may be ripped apart by this, in prayer to the very One who created them...

Thursday, October 30, 2008

What in the WORLD!????!

Is this????
Obama should never have even made it this far...


Let me just say that as a Christ follower I hold a very big responsibility to vote according to HIS ways. Not just me, but we, the Bride of Christ--the TRUE BRIDE OF CHRIST--hold a VERY big responsibility. If you think that for one minute God really cares about our financial comforts more than He does the murdering of unborn children, or the redefining of marriage then you are ABSOLUTELY wrong! Because He does not. He tells us to sell everything and follow Him... HE will supply our needs according to HIS riches and glory--that may not look like what you think it does! I, for the life of me cannot seem to find it anywhere in the Word of God, that it is ok to turn a blind eye to the sins that this nations leaders are trying to legalize and redefine as moral liberty!!!

So, if you call yourself a christian, and you say that you believe the word of God to be the one and only truth, then you had better hope that your votes are not for those who support abortion or gay marriage... Because one day you WILL stand before the Lord and have to explain why your financial comforts were more important than your responsibility in representing Jesus...

Vote against this

Friday, October 17, 2008

I Feel Led to Share This With the Few That Might Read!!!

So if you feel the need to be educated on the current housing market crash then please grab a drink maybe even a snack and watch this-

Monday, October 13, 2008

If you would care to know...

I got my cute new background for free!!!! Just click on the the "cutest little blog on the block" icon in the top lefthand corner of my blog and you too can have your own new blog look for free!!! What is better than free?! God bless!

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Just a song on my heart...

Oh how I love Jesus
Oh how I love Je-esus
Oh how I love Jesus, becau-ause He first loved me.
To me He is so wonderful and I lo-ove Him
To me He is so wonderful and I lo-ove Him
To me He is so wonderful and I love Him becau-ause He first loved me!!!!!


Homosexuality is ABSOLUTELY an abomination to God, God loves the people snared by the bondage, but HATES the sin. Whoa to those who say that same sex marriage is "ok"...

If you do not serve Jesus Christ then you will not enter the Kingdom of Heaven.

No man comith unto the Father, but by me. Jesus Christ

Thursday, October 9, 2008

Prayers No Matter How Small Are Important to The King of Kings

We have changed homeschooling curriculum this year and I must say that I am LOVING it! We started out with ABeka and I liked it--it is a very good curriculum, but my daughter is a very artistic person and the worksheets were not her style!(much to my chagrin ;)) So, I started asking the Lord to help me find the perfect curriculum for All my children. After all they are His children! After nearly two months of pondering and praying a sweet friend of mine told me that she was going to use Sonlight and that I should look into it.

I went to Sonlight's websight and began the research. I fell in love. I love the Charlotte Mason idea of teaching, however, my personality requires more structure! ;) And Sonlight happened to have both! I knew that the Lord had plopped this in my lap! He is SOOOO wonderful, all we need to do is ask for His help and guidance and He will give it! I am so thankful to have been chosen by you Father, thank you Jesus for dying for me!

Praise God!

So, since I changed to a curriculum that embraces a Charlotte Mason type learning, that means that I am more involved than before, because I am reading a.lot. to them!!! This is also another answer to prayer! I am spending more quality time with my children doing something we all enjoy, reading! Before this I felt as though I wasn't able to spend quality time with all three kids like I should be, because I am not the playful type! My imagination is VERY lacking! But, with reading, everyone's needs are being met! Thank you again Lord! See, serving Him is absolutely the ONLY way! God bless!

Just a Minute...

That is exactly what the Lord has been speaking to me lately. He whispers His plans to us and then we must wait for His perfect timing! Which may or may not be soon! I am not sure when Jesus would have us to adopt, but the time does not appear to be right now! However, our hearts have heard and we will be obedient when He says the time is right. Not my will, Lord, but Thine be done.

Friday, August 29, 2008

God is Still Workin' on Adding to Our Family!


Aren't you glad that God doesn't ever quit on us?

I know I am!

When I first married the man that God chose for me, AKA my DH, I wanted at least 4 kids.

Then I got pregnant...

I had it in mind that a woman felt her best when she was pregnant and that they glowed and blah blah blah!

I NEVER felt my best when I was pregnant and it just progressively got worse as the pregnancies insued! By the time I was pregnant with our third child I almost needed to have a wheelchair to get around at the end. My pelvis, for whatever reason, starts its separating shinanigans around the 5th week of pregnancy.

Did you catch that--the 5th week!


I don't rightly know, just the way I was made I suppose. At any rate it wasn't good and my husband promptly informed me that we would not be having any more babies because he couldn't handle watching me like that, oh and the worrying about me and the baby and so on and so forth.

So, prayerfully, my husband made the decision to permanently stop his ability to bring forth spawn. Which, I would like to add here, was THE hardest decision for me.


Done with growing our family, I mean.

Apparently, God knew more! What a surprise huh?!!! I am always so awed by Jesus' wonderful ability to answer those desires and needs in us that we just.can'

GOD is leading us to ADOPT!!!!!

I am so excited! Scared. Overwhelmed. Nervous. Worried. Did I mention I was scared? Well, I am, but, I know that Jesus Christ is able to do, when we cannot and so I REST in Him(Most of the time that is true ;)--you have to remember I AM human).

Ok. So this is how it went.

My husband and I were sitting in the living room about 3 weeks ago and I just blurted out "I think we should adopt." His reply shocked me really, because I totally expected him to say--"NO WAY, we don't even get to love on these kids enough, imagine having more, or NO WAY, most days I come home and you want to pull your hair out and run away, or NO WAY, you say that schooling two kids with a toddler is impossible!"--You get the picture?! Being a mom is probably the HARDEST thing that I have ever done. I feel such a HUGE responsibility to the Lord to raise them as best I can and I know that I fall short of that ALL the time! If it weren't for the fact that Jesus Christ if full of mercy and grace I would never make it as a mother! ;) BUT, my husband did not reply that way! He said--"I thought about doing that too!" Then it dawned on me that I told my husband a coulpe of years ago that "I would never adopt(unless of course God told us to), because I would be afraid I wouldn't love them as much as our biological kids."

So, I guess, "never say never"

Let the adventure begin!!!!

Saturday, August 23, 2008

We Definitely Need To Be Seeking The LORD About Our Next President...

I received a very disturbing youtube clip today in my e-mail! And my heart is breaking for the children that do not/or will never have a voice to speak for themselves. We, as followers of Jesus Christ must stand up against the evils of this world IN JESUS NAME!

Thursday, July 31, 2008

O Holy Night

This is the most beautiful rendition of a WONDERFUL song--Fabulous!!!!

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Thursday, July 10, 2008

I Found The Perfect Song That Tells How I Feel...

about a certain man in my life...

This is for my wonderful husband, who works very hard for our family. I thank God for you everyday and I Thank you...I love you!!!!

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

I Just Want To Say THANK YOU To ALL Who Serve

Our country. Whether you are actually military or the wife or husband that holds the fort down at home--thank you and may the Lord, Jesus Christ bless you and keep you.
Go here and watch a very convicting video.
God bless,

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Please Add This Sweet Family To Your Prayer List...

They have been going through a VERY intense trial for nearly two years now. And I believe that they could use some more diligent intercessors praying for them! So, please take them before our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, and ask for His divine hand to intervene. God bless!

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

There is a Wonderful Giveaway!

Pam at Good News From A Far Country has a wonderful opportunity to win some unique prizes! So hop on over and visit her a while, after you enter her give-away of course! ;)

Thursday, May 29, 2008

The Beginnings of a Life Together

(These pictures were taken in July of 2006 at my brothers wedding--they are not of our wedding! Just the most recent photos that I have of us together alone! :))

So, my last post left off on New Years Eve of 2000! And DH and I were married on January 30, 2000! We had to do that, because otherwise we would slip up. When you know that someone IS your spouse, it is incredibly hard to keep your flesh from jumping ahead of things and needless to say I fell down. However, I told my soon to be husband who wasn't of the same mindset, but was incredibly understanding and patient that we had to be married--Because there would not be, could not be ANY. more. of. that. He obliged and we were married in a very quiet ceremony at my pastors house with my pastors wife, his daughter and of course he officiated--It was simple and very sweet. Plus we saved a WHOLE LOTTA money doing it that way! ;)

I promptly moved onto the Air Force Base about 45 minutes from my the city where I grew up. We were blessed at every corner! On February 8th we found out that we were expecting our first baby! No sense in wasting any time!

I am going to pause here to let you know that the Lord had told me through a prophetic word that when I was united with my husband that I would become pregnant on my wedding night! He wasn't kidding. I became pregnant immediately as in we didn't even need to try more than once. So-that means that we conceived the one time that we slipped up before we were married by law, however our hearts were knit together and we felt married before the actual ceremony(I don't know if that makes sense, sorry). Except we did not know about it until after our marriage ceremony. I want all to know that I do not condone fornication at. all. I know that God does not condone it either. That is why we got married so soon-we knew that it would be better to marry knowing that we were intended for one another and not knowing each other, so that ALL things could be done in accordance to God's Word and how He says they should be done rather than putting ourselves in a tempting situation.

Alrighty then, moving on--

As you may or may not remember DH had not asked Jesus to be Lord of his life yet, but God promised me before we were married that he would be saved very shortly after. And my God CANNOT lie! So, on February 23rd, 2000 in the wee hours of the night, DH woke up frantic for some reason. I quickly turned my lamp on and asked him what was wrong, I had never seen such terror on someone's face.
Husband: I just had a terrrible dream, I was in this tunnel and there were all these demons/creature things and they were chasing me and they were coming out of these holes along the tunnel. Jim(our/my pastor) was there and he was fighting them off for me and telling them to go away in Jesus Name. That was the only thing that was keeping them from getting me.
Me: Well, you need to ask Jesus into you heart. Do you want Jesus to be your Lord and Savior?
Husband: Yes.
Me: Ok, pray this after me... And we prayed
My husband became a child of the Most High God that night! Not only that but I layed hands on him and he received the baptism of the Holy Spirit as well. Then I called Nita to tell her all about what had happened(at like 3am) and as she and I were talking the Lord delivered DH from some demonic bondage that had been hindering him from the time he was a little guy!!!! Praise Jesus! Isn't God good?! He ALWAYS goes above and beyond anything that we could ever imagine! So, now my DH was a born again believer of Jesus Christ! Thank you Jesus for always being so faithful to your children, you never cease to amaze me!

We were very blessed, but by the world's standards we were poor! However, God made sure that all our needs were met! We had a house-paid for, we had medical-free, we had food allowance plus the meager salary of an E-2(I believe?). Anyhow, I quit my job as an Orthodontic Assistant when I was 5 months pregnant with our daughter and became a homemaker! I loved it. It was a very "honeymoonish" time in my life. I got to take leisurely walks with my dog daily and have lunch with my husband and basicly get used to being a wife for about 4 months!

Then on September 27th, 2 weeks before her due date, my daughter started her decent into this world. She was born on September 28th, 2000 at 2:15 am. That is a very awesome testimony/story that I may have to type up on this here blog one of these days. But until then God bless you and I will be typing again soon!

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Meeting My Intended

Well, I have good intentions! I really would like to be able to keep up with the whole posting part of blogging, but it takes such a huge chunk outta my precious time with my family! Not to mention that I am incredibly lazy when it comes to typing(I am not what you would call fast ;))!
However, I have a whole lot of wonderful testimonies of what the Lord has done in my life and I know that their are people out there that need to know that I am nothing special and that Jesus will do these types of things for them too! So, time to get off my proverbial bottom and get busy typing!
By May of 1999 I had reached the bottom of me. I had been saved for a year and some months and had just gotten back on the path with Jesus. I had stepped off for a time to see if I could go back to my old life, but I was different and God made sure that I was very aware of that fact. Anyway, I was walking with the Lord again and life was good. Let me pause here to tell you that in my shady past I had been married on two separate occasions to two separate men, both of whom I had joined myself together with. Needless to say I KNEW what I did NOT want in a spouse. So, I took it upon myself to write the Lord a letter listing a total of 26 things that I would like in a man and I placed the letter in my Bible(knowing the Lord the way that I do now this act seems rather presumptuous to me!;)). The months went by and I knew that God was going to have to move miraculously because there was very little possibility of my meeting a godly man anywhere that I went, which was only work and home and of course church. Church was a small group of wonderful full gospel believing Christians that met at our pastors house, so that did not look hopeful! I also spent a lot of time under the mentoring of my pastors wife and therefor spent lots of time at their home.
When Christmas rolled around my pastors wife, Nita, and I were going to the local jail to visit with a woman there and I was telling Nita how I just wish that Jesus would bring me my husband the one that I knew He had intended for me ALL along.
Nita: How do you talk to Jesus?
Me: Lord, Please etc. etc., in Jesus name, Amen.
Nita: Sarah, is Jesus your friend?
Me: Yes.
Nita: If I had something you wanted, how would you ask me for it?
Me: I would say, Nita please give *it* to me!
Nita: Alright then, tell Jesus, talk to Him just as you would talk to any of your friends.
Me: Jesus, Please bring me MY husband, I am sooooo tired of being alone! I just want my own family...
The Next day was Christmas day and I was going to have Christmas dinner at Nita's and celebrate Jesus' birthday. Her oldest daughter had asked if a couple of military guys could come for dinner because they didn't have anywhere to go. I was a little put out by this because I had a feeling that they would probably be obnoxious at best!
When they arrived there didn't seem to be anything out of the ordinary about either of them. I wasn't drawn to either of them although they weren't annoying either.
After that day and having been introduced to Brandon the whole following week his name would float through my thoughts like that of a banner behind an airplane. I would be at work talking with someone and suddenly his name would just pass through! WEIRD!!!! I had never experienced anything like it in the past. So, one evening about 5 days after meeting him I was talking with Nita again and I told her about what had been happening. She got a big grin on her face, I asked her what she was smiling about and she replied with, what did you ask Jesus for? A husband was my response. So, she said, I believe Jesus answered your prayer! I immediately started praying about that, because of course I DID NOT want to mess that whole thing up again!
On New Years Eve Nita had invited Brandon and his friend back to her house for dinner. When they arrived it was as though the Lord put a spot light on me because all of a sudden Brandon seemed drawn to me. We talked nearly all night long. At one point he got very pale and looked scared, so I asked him what was up?! He told me that he had just seen what our kids were going to look like! I would like to tell you that I just smiled quietly at him, however that would be lying. Instead I said well that makes sense because I am your wife. God picked you for my husband. I am surprised even to this day that he did not leave immediately and never return because the poor man had only met me two times and one of those meetings we never really said more than a few words to one another! But, God, is so so patient and merciful, because Brandon did not run away and never talk to me again, no he stepped up to the challenge and trusted a God that he hadn't even given himself over to...

Friday, April 18, 2008

Can I just say that

serving Jesus Christ is the MOST life changing experience EVER!!! We were offered the job! It is such an awesome testimony to the Glory of God!!! I give Him ALL the credit. So, after much prayer and seeking my DH will let them know today that we will accept the position! Thank you Jesus.

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Praise Jesus in the Highest!!!!

About a year ago I was incredibly frustrated with the position that my husband was in at work. He has a wonderful job financially, way above what we ever had imagined, but his employer had just put him on salary and then promptly tacked on the responsibility of a whole nother position!!!! Imagine my irritation! BUT!!!! I serve the God of Heaven and Earth! So, naturally I went to prayer, after some teensy weensy wailing and gnashing of my teeth(sheepish grin). After all I am human and incredibly fallible!
I digress.
So, where was I? Oh ya, he was working TWO jobs for one salary. The second position that they gave to him was a position that was supervising, sometimes, up to 30 employees, all the other supervisors were making $10,000-15,000/year more than he was making! So, here is what I prayed-"Father you say in your Word that a man is worth his hire! And I believe ALL of your word I am going to stand on your Word--Please pay DH what he worth." Then I promptly informed the thief(that is Satan in case you were wonderin') that he HAD to return to us everything that he was stealing and that he had stolen(in regards to this work situation)in Jesus name and that I wanted him to return it sevenfold(it is scriptural!).
I know that I should not be surprised, but Jesus just reminded me that I had prayed that, and right this very minute my husband is being interveiwed for a position that if you look at in the natural is IMPOSSIBLE, but with our GOD, JESUS CHRIST, NOTHING is impossible! Mix faith in Him and prayer(according to God's Word) and a splash of spiritual warfare and you have a recipe for God to be GLORIFIED! PRAISE YOU JESUS! I LOVE YOU.

Tuesday, April 8, 2008

Lots of Concern for Lost Souls...

In light of the "Cult" that Oprah is raising up and supporting, I thought that these youtube clips would absolutely let you know where she stands. It is so sad. Pray, for her and AAAALLLLLLLLL the countless people that she is leading astray, not to mention the actual Christians that are buying into her lies.

Watch it here.

And then here.

If you are a Christian and you are absolutely walking with the Lord Jesus Christ in a personal relationship with Him, then YOU are needed. Not just to pray about and for Oprah and what she is doing, but to be praying that God's man, whomever that may be, will be voted into office in the upcoming election. It is imperative that we, as the bride of Christ seek Him for His wisdom about who He wants as President of this country. If we do not then it is very possible that our freedoms, to outright, be Christians will be jeopardized. Wake up! Do not let the enemy lull you to sleep any longer. Get on your face before the Lord and ask Him for His will and His man to be elected...

We, as Christians, need to care about the lost souls in our country. We need the continuing freedom to preach the truth within our own country, that we may be able to continue bringing in the harvest. Don't turn a blind eye to the possibility of losing that freedom---Please get on your face before our Father in Heaven. He says: If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray , and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land. 2Chron 7:14.

So, I guess, I am asking for you, who read this and serve our Lord Jesus Christ with all your heart, to be in agreement with me in prayer. I am going into God's throne room daily and petitioning the Lord to allow His man to be elected, that God would even cause the hands of those who don't serve Him to vote for His man(who may not be a "Christian" just the "one" that God has chosen for the job). And to continue to allow us to harvest new souls that are being won for Jesus Christ in relative peace and freedom. God bless.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

So the next part of my tranformation was...

Being set free from spiritual bondage. You see, I had a problem from about the age of 15, with promiscuity. I was never taught that you should wait for marriage to have sex, noone EVER told me that fornication was wrong. But God says that it is and if you don't believe me:
Flee fornication. Every sin that a man doeth is without the body; but he that committeth fornication sinneth against his own body. 1Cor6:18
God's Word is true even if you do not know it. Just because you do not serve Him, or believe His Words or His commandments does not mean that that makes them not BE. So, while I was out committing sexual sin, the enemy, or satan, was putting me in spiritual bondage, i.e. demonic bondage. Satan only has a right to attack us if we are in direct opposition to God's Word and I was.

I had decided in the summer of '97(I think it was '97!) that I couldn't be a good christian so I gave up and went back to a life that I was familiar with. The only problem with that was that I was a new creature in Christ Jesus and no amount of going back would change that fact. Try as I might I was not able to "fit" in with my old crowd! However, that did not deter me. I kept on(did I mention that I can be stubborn?!). Satan took it upon himself to deceive me, he brought a man into my life and literally, very audibly spoke into my ear that "this was my husband". I was shocked and excited and I thought that that HAD to be God!!! However I did not know Gods still small voice during that part of my walk or lack of my walk. So, I married this man, I did not love him, but oh how he professed to love me. I tried sooooo hard to love him, I thought that my family loves him and he loves me that should be enough. Eventually, I could not lie to him, myself, and my family and friends anymore, I had to tell them that I had made ANOTHER mistake. During this time the Lord had been wooing me with His Holy Spirit, whispering to me that I needed to come back to Him. He would love me no matter what that all I needed to do was come back--repent and turn away.

That time in my walk is a time that I have tried desperately to shove way down into a dark pit, so that I won't have to feel the pain of the treacherous mistakes that I made. I very seldom share this part of my testimony, out of shame I suppose. The Lord told me I must for His Glory, because I have been abundantly blessed, much like the prodigal son.

So, I told this man that I had joined myself together with that I did not love him, that I never had felt any type of emotion other than friendship for him and that I wanted to get a divorce. Now lest you see that I made this decision in haste, I PRAYED and agonized over my situation for a VERY longtime. I searched the Word, poured over it, consulted mature Christians that God had placed in my path, went to the pastors at the church that I attended, you name it I did it, but in the end it was just me alone with God. There is a scripture that we use ALL the time that I guess most of us miss the first part, at least I had:
What God has joined together, let no man put asunder. Matt19:6b
God had not joined us together. We had put ourselves together. Do not think that I am OK with divorce, I am not. The Word of God is very clear on this issue. God is also clear on the issue of Him joining man and woman. I believe that there is a perfect someone for everyone, God made each of us a husband and visa versa. I know this only because He has shown me.

OK, so during this terrible time of emotional and spiritual upheaval in my life some friends(christian) of mine had mentioned that I needed to meet this woman that they knew. She was a christian woman who the Lord used in the gifting of word of knowledge and deliverance from spiritual bondage. I had ignored them until one day I woke up and I KNEW that I had to meet her, so I called my friend.

I met this woman, Nita, at my friends house, I saw a peace in her that I wanted, a kindness, a gentleness--I saw Jesus. The Lord started out by using Nita to tell me some personal things that no one would know, heart things(not physical things) stuff that I had thought and felt but never shared with anyone, only God could have known. Then she asked me if I would like to be free from a demon spirit that I was in bondage to, I said "what? of course I don't want a demon on me." So, she prayed for me and took authority over that spirit in Jesus Name rebuking it and told it to leave. I am telling you that that was one of the most AWESOME things that has happened to me in my walk. It was like I could suddenly think clear, there was a VERY dark cloud that left. I felt joy and peace and warmth! It was amazing! That night I went right to sleep, I had trouble falling asleep in the past with racing thoughts of insignificant things going through my head, but now those thoughts were gone! And they have NEVER come back! Praise be to God! Jesus Christ came to set the captives free!!!! And I was free indeed!

This bondage that I had accumulated was because of sexual sin. It was a demon that also caused me to lust in a sexual manner among other types of lust. The biggest change that I noticed right away was that I did not have a driving desire to be in a sexual relationship. I no longer HAD TO HAVE a male to make me feel worth something. It is very hard to explain, but the obsession that satan and his demons make you feel for ungodly things is VERY overwhelming and hard to stop yourself from doing. They always make your fleshly desires stronger almost superhuman strong(not in a good way either because they want you to sin so that you won't ever experience freedom and might possibly end up in hell for eternity, that is their main goal.). I just hope that you understand that sexual sin opens your spirit up to a bunch of spiritual bondage, stuff that ONLY Jesus Christ has the power to set you free from. I pray that if you have issues with anything that you are not able to stop then you will call on the name of the Lord.
Jesus says that Ye ask, and receive not because ye ask amiss, that ye may comsume it upon your lusts. Jam4:3
So, ask Him, He will answer you and take care of you.

That was only the beginning of a wonderful walk with the Lord, because He was not(and still isn't) done with me!
God bless you all.

Monday, February 25, 2008

Did I mention that I am lousy at staying in touch?

Well, I am. I think that it is just plain old laziness. Not necessarily an attribute. I would rather browse around and read what everyone else is writing! I am soo lazy about it that I don't even comment! What is that all about?! People I know will be celebrating something and I don't even want to take the time to log in and wish them "happy whathaveyou"! Man, I really need to have this looked into!

Have you ever noticed that when you seem to be gaining ground in one area of your life and walking well with the Lord there, there is ANOTHER area that seems to be going down the slippery slope? Yah? You too, huh? Well, that is me in my insane laziness about staying in touch... Usually, I have to make myself(but I can most often overcome the urge to not do it), but lately I just don't. So, I am going to try to at least post once a week. Not that anyone cares, but I do! Why have a blog if you aren't going to post?!

Besides, I started this blog so that I could testify about my walk with the Lord and give Jesus Christ ALL the glory!!!! Because, the Word says that We are saved by the Blood of the Lamb AND the word of our testimony! Praise be to God! So, I need to get a move on and start sharing, maybe somebody needs to hear it! God bless you all!