Well, I have good intentions! I really would like to be able to keep up with the whole posting part of blogging, but it takes such a huge chunk outta my precious time with my family! Not to mention that I am incredibly lazy when it comes to typing(I am not what you would call fast ;))!
However, I have a whole lot of wonderful testimonies of what the Lord has done in my life and I know that their are people out there that need to know that I am nothing special and that Jesus will do these types of things for them too! So, time to get off my proverbial bottom and get busy typing!
By May of 1999 I had reached the bottom of me. I had been saved for a year and some months and had just gotten back on the path with Jesus. I had stepped off for a time to see if I could go back to my old life, but I was different and God made sure that I was very aware of that fact. Anyway, I was walking with the Lord again and life was good. Let me pause here to tell you that in my shady past I had been married on two separate occasions to two separate men, both of whom I had joined myself together with. Needless to say I KNEW what I did NOT want in a spouse. So, I took it upon myself to write the Lord a letter listing a total of 26 things that I would like in a man and I placed the letter in my Bible(knowing the Lord the way that I do now this act seems rather presumptuous to me!;)). The months went by and I knew that God was going to have to move miraculously because there was very little possibility of my meeting a godly man anywhere that I went, which was only work and home and of course church. Church was a small group of wonderful full gospel believing Christians that met at our pastors house, so that did not look hopeful! I also spent a lot of time under the mentoring of my pastors wife and therefor spent lots of time at their home.
When Christmas rolled around my pastors wife, Nita, and I were going to the local jail to visit with a woman there and I was telling Nita how I just wish that Jesus would bring me my husband the one that I knew He had intended for me ALL along.
Nita: How do you talk to Jesus?
Me: Lord, Please etc. etc., in Jesus name, Amen.
Nita: Sarah, is Jesus your friend?
Nita: If I had something you wanted, how would you ask me for it?
Me: I would say, Nita please give *it* to me!
Nita: Alright then, tell Jesus, talk to Him just as you would talk to any of your friends.
Me: Jesus, Please bring me MY husband, I am sooooo tired of being alone! I just want my own family...
The Next day was Christmas day and I was going to have Christmas dinner at Nita's and celebrate Jesus' birthday. Her oldest daughter had asked if a couple of military guys could come for dinner because they didn't have anywhere to go. I was a little put out by this because I had a feeling that they would probably be obnoxious at best!
When they arrived there didn't seem to be anything out of the ordinary about either of them. I wasn't drawn to either of them although they weren't annoying either.
After that day and having been introduced to Brandon the whole following week his name would float through my thoughts like that of a banner behind an airplane. I would be at work talking with someone and suddenly his name would just pass through! WEIRD!!!! I had never experienced anything like it in the past. So, one evening about 5 days after meeting him I was talking with Nita again and I told her about what had been happening. She got a big grin on her face, I asked her what she was smiling about and she replied with, what did you ask Jesus for? A husband was my response. So, she said, I believe Jesus answered your prayer! I immediately started praying about that, because of course I DID NOT want to mess that whole thing up again!
On New Years Eve Nita had invited Brandon and his friend back to her house for dinner. When they arrived it was as though the Lord put a spot light on me because all of a sudden Brandon seemed drawn to me. We talked nearly all night long. At one point he got very pale and looked scared, so I asked him what was up?! He told me that he had just seen what our kids were going to look like! I would like to tell you that I just smiled quietly at him, however that would be lying. Instead I said well that makes sense because I am your wife. God picked you for my husband. I am surprised even to this day that he did not leave immediately and never return because the poor man had only met me two times and one of those meetings we never really said more than a few words to one another! But, God, is so so patient and merciful, because Brandon did not run away and never talk to me again, no he stepped up to the challenge and trusted a God that he hadn't even given himself over to...