Wednesday, October 17, 2007

Introductions can be awkward(Part 1)

Hello. I am going to just give a little history. I am still trying to figure this whole "blog" thing out! To say that I am technologically challenged would be too kind! I am at best only challenged!

Anyhoo. Moving on.

I am 33 yrs. young, married with 3 children and we live in Rural Oklahoma on a "hobby" farm... I call it a "hobby" farm because it is in fact just a hobby! I don't think that it will be what we as a family will be doing with the rest of our time here on this earth! Plus, I still have a hard time believing that I live on a farm! :)

It has been a wonderful experience choc full of intense learning! Jesus moved us here 3 years ago this November. And you might ask how did He do that? But, I assure you that He did it all, down to selling our house without ever putting it on the market! It is an AWESOME testimony to the faithfulness of our God, Jesus Christ, and what He will and can do if we seek His Will and not our own! Oh how I love Jesus! I will share that testimony at a later date, first I would like to share my AWESOME testimony of how Jesus Christ saved me from Hell...

So here we go, I was RADICALLY saved out of drugs and a very bad life at the age of 22 yrs, by none only than Jesus Christ! I had reached such a low in my life that merely going on and having no point in it was not going to suffice. I was brought up to believe that there was not a God. So, when I reached adolescence I was very immoral and did not understand anything about purity or keeping oneself for marriage, I started down the road of drugs and alcohol at a very young age as well. That road, that I chose, led me to the darkest pits of despair that any human being could ever endure. I started dabbling in the occult, playing with ouiji boards and looking for anything spiritual or paranormal... I had a discernment for spiritual "things" as it were, but had no knowledge of Jesus Christ and the Holy Spirit. By the time I was 21 I had already tried to end my life physically, had suffered terribly from an eating disorder, and had a real problem with alcohol and any drug that would cause me to hallucinate. So, marrying someone that I barely knew at 22 years of age was not too far out of character for me. He ended up not being my husband, at least, not the husband that God had intended for me when He created me. But during that brief marriage I realized that I needed to quit doing drugs and drinking, so I joined AA. It was in Alcoholics Anonymous that I decided that there really IS a God(not yet ready to accept that Jesus was God), but there is A God.

God had been preparing this encounter with me for quite some time, which does not come as a shock to me now, but back then it was amazing--it still is amazing to think that the Creator of the universe cared about little ol' me! Anyway, my best friend, from 5 th grade, Tonya, had moved back to where we grew up(I had never left) and she was now a Christian! She would try to tell me about Jesus and I would tell her-"Don't talk to me about YOUR Jesus, I don't want to hear about that @#%^&*^!" and I am sure other choice things flew from my filthy mouth. Nevertheless she remained my friend. I was in college at the time and in my History class(my favorite class that semester) we had assigned seating, and wouldn't you know it, God sat me right smack in between two Christians! Not just any old Christians, either! They were not scared to profess the name of Jesus Christ! One of those Christians ended up being a very dear friend of mine throughout school! So, the scene is set, I once did not believe there was a God, and now I believe there is, God has seen to it that I am surrounded by Christians--softening that soil of my heart! One night about 1-2mos. after all this happened I told Tonya, that I would accept HER Jesus! That is all I said. She was very excited, but I didn't feel anything had really happened. Move forward about 3 weeks and I was at the gym at 5AM-now bear in mind that not many people frequent the gym at 5AM and usually it is the same group--we all knew each other. I was on the stairmaster reading some school book and somebody got on the stairmaster next to mine, I could tell that this someone was watching me. So, when I thought that Mr. Someone wasn't looking I glanced over. Upon glancing I noticed that he was wearing a wedding ring-not a good sign in my book and that I had NEVER seen him before--He never came to the gym not at 5AM anyway. I finished and went over to the water fountain, where he promptly followed, he stuck out his hand and said "Hi, my name is Jonathon!" and I grabbed his hand and said "Hi, I'm Sarah, I've never seen you here before, glad to meet you." All the while thinking in my head WHAT ON EARTH are you saying, you sound like an idiot, why would you say THAT to him! But I turned and went in the locker room, red face and all, anything to get away from the very awkward moment!


Pam--in Jerusalem said...

Sarah, I've never seen you here before, nice to meet you! ;)
Really, though, it is nice to "meet" you, and I'm DYING to hear the rest of your testimony! It never ceases to amaze me how early in our lives the Lord starts weaving His plan for us. I'll be back to read the rest!

I live for Jesus said...

Hello Pam!
It is very nice to meet you as well! I have been lurking at your blog for some time! :) I don't comment because I don't ever know what to say and of course there is always a shortage with "time"! :) I started a blog so that I could talk, communicate, and socialize with ALL the wonderful Christian women that I have been getting to know by reading their blogs! I thought that that was a wee bit onesided, in friend making, what with you all not knowing anything about me! So, hopefully we can at the very least become better acquainted! God bless you.
Sarah T